Last week we lost our beloved Grandad. He had been admitted to hospital the week before and things did not look good, but he had had a small operation and was told afterwards when he had healed from that he could go home. I even spoke to him on the phone. We thought the emergency was over, and we could breathe again. It was a real shock to hear how he became so unwell so quickly over the next couple of days. I do not want to go into detail here but the trauma, grief and upset of the past two weeks have been a heavy burden for our hearts to bear.
Last Wednesday I heard the news of his passing, broken to me so kindly and gently. I wept with the pain of losing someone I love so much and knowing that my children would most certainly miss their dear Grampy. Telling Phoebe was one of the hardest things I have ever done, and she was so upset. But also, thankfully, she is strong and still... well, a child, so she was soon asking questions and talking about him without getting upset. She thought it very important that she was still able to show him pictures she had done and talk to him sometimes so I told her to talk to the starts and he would most certainly hear. That is what my Nana had said to me before she left us all those years ago.
Grandad (Grampy) and Ezra
So things are a little quiet and subdued around here. We are grieving and well, I think it will be a while before i come to terms with it. It is hard to let go. My Grandad feels like the last tie to my childhood and the true patriach of the family. The Grandfather. He is loved so much by so many.
I am helped somewhat by imagining what is waititng for him on the other side. I am a spiritual person and am still defining my beliefs, but I like to think of Nana waiting for him so they can be together once again - to sing and dance and hold each other tight, just as they used to do. The love they showed for each other has been an inspiration to me in my marriage.
Grandad (Grampy) and Phoebe
I am going to go now, can't have too many tears on the keyboard, but I would like to say this. My Grandad was this blog's biggest fan. He was my number one reader and the main reason for all the hundreds of pictures I have posted here over the years. In honour of him I am making a promise to myself to keep this blog going, and to try and write more regularly. I hope to make this a true picture of our family's path as we journey together through this life.
So goodnight and God bless Grandad. You are so loved and will be missed greatly. We will hold onto those memories of the good times we had together and cherish them always. You will forever be in our hearts. I love you. xxx