Sunday, 30 October 2011

This week

A quick random assortment.
Picture 1: melting crayon art
Picture 2: Phoebe's mummy styled hair
Picture 3: Russ and Ezra at Pumpkin Day on Riverford Farm. So much fun with friends.
Pictures 4 & 5: Phoebe being very excited on a vintage London open top bus. Though we chose the enclosed bit upstairs for the actual journey.

Such a happy week.

Wednesday, 26 October 2011

PC Ezra

He's just whole heaps of gorgeousness!

A day with friends

Calamity Phoebs - My beautiful free spirited cowgirl! Her future career plan at the moment is to marry Ezra and drive a stagecoach with Calamity Jane.

We had a great time yesterday playing with friends, and their mummies. A much needed diversion from yucky colds and the jobs that need to be done at home. Thank you so much to my lovely friends 'mummybear' (slugandsnail.Blogspot.com) and 'barefootmummy' (barefootbirthpools.co.uk). The lunch was gorgeous veggie chilli and roasted sweet potatoes with salad. We lit a fire and toasted marshmallows. We shared winter spiced punch outside, and talked of family life and of soul nourishment. Our kids ran around and played with a stomp rocket, which was the greatest invention ever to Ezra and the funniest thing ever to little Sonny!
Such a lovely day, and I am so grateful for it!

Time

Just giving myself some time and space still right now. We have all come down with colds, coughs and sore throats. Ezra has been waking frequently and i was up til past 3am with him last night. This afternoon I need to clear out a whole room in preparation for our new kitchen which is arriving Friday morning. And so pretty much all else but preparation and recovery is on the backburner. Our new kitchen and building work is starting on 11th November so we will have an odd couple of weeks of topsy turvy house and slowly clearing out the kitchen before work begins. This feels like a real time of change for all of us. I have some thoughts and plans and dreams that I will share at a later date and I am starting (another) new blog too. Details to follow. But for now I am remembering to rest and make home my priority. Love, love, love, and breathe.

Saturday, 22 October 2011

Grampy and Little Dot

Yesterday we said goodbye to our Grandad, or Grampy as he was known to our children.
It was a lovely service and a very emotional day. I still can't decide if the peace I feel around it is genuine or if I am still in denial. Either way, I don't feel he is really gone. I am certain he is watching over us all and reunited with the love of his life, my Nana.
I wanted to share this poem he wrote for Phoebe back in 2009, when she was just two. It brought tears to my eyes yesterday, but they were happy ones. I am so grateful to have had my Grandad in my life, and my children's lives, and I can still feel his love now. I feel honoured to be his grandchild.

Without further ado here is his poem for Phoebe.

some days i sit &pass the time,,,,,& think of words that maybe rhyme,,                                                                   sometimes the words are left till later ,but these are some i put to paper,,                                                                all about my pheobe dot ,a little girl i love a lot                                                                                                              i,ll  try again , but think i,ll wait,august seems a likely date ,,,,,,,,,Pheobe ,,   You came into my life,& brought back a smile,  made me forget all my sorrow,, if just for a while, if only My dot  had seen your,e sweet face,so full of love,such beauty & grace but you have the love that comes from  our hearts,i cant watch you full grow, for just like my dot  i will depart, but the memory of us both, you,ll keep in your heart, & when youre full grown,,,you wont have forgot,the joy that you gave & the love that you got, from a grateful old grampy, to his little dot                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      ,                                                                                                                            

xXx





Tuesday, 18 October 2011

Twenty-Three Hour Giveaway for TWO Seats in the Lodge - Pink Coyote

The beautiful Pixie Campbell is giving away two spaces on her amazing SouLodge. Oh my goodness, this is so exactly what i need! If you are interested please go check it out:

http://pixiecampbell.typepad.com/pink_coyote/

Sunday, 16 October 2011

Quiet time

We are just having some family time over the next week or so, as we have been doing since my Grandad became very ill. Which means lots of time at home, and a visit to my parents' house in the week. His funeral is on Friday and it will feel better to see my extended family and talk about him. I think I will begin blogging again afterwards when I feel more at peace and able to write clearly. Thank you so much for all your kind words, which have been a soothing balm to my soul. xxx

Monday, 10 October 2011

Goodbye Grandad

This is a really hard post for me to write. I have composed it over and over again in my head the past two or three days and now its time to put it down here.

Last week we lost our beloved Grandad. He had been admitted to hospital the week before and things did not look good, but he had had a small operation and was told afterwards when he had healed from that he could go home. I even spoke to him on the phone. We thought the emergency was over, and we could breathe again. It was a real shock to hear how he became so unwell so quickly over the next couple of days. I do not want to go into detail here but the trauma, grief and upset of the past two weeks have been a heavy burden for our hearts to bear.

Last Wednesday I heard the news of his passing, broken to me so kindly and gently. I wept with the pain of losing someone I love so much and knowing that my children would most certainly miss their dear Grampy. Telling Phoebe was one of the hardest things I have ever done, and she was so upset. But also, thankfully, she is strong and still... well, a child, so she was soon asking questions and talking about him without getting upset. She thought it very important that she was still able to show him pictures she had done and talk to him sometimes so I told her to talk to the starts and he would most certainly hear. That is what my Nana had said to me before she left us all those years ago.



Grandad (Grampy) and Ezra

So things are a little quiet and subdued around here. We are grieving and well, I think it will be a while before i come to terms with it. It is hard to let go. My Grandad feels like the last tie to my childhood and the true patriach of the family. The Grandfather. He is loved so much by so many.

I am helped somewhat by imagining what is waititng for him on the other side. I am a spiritual person and am still defining my beliefs, but I like to think of Nana waiting for him so they can be together once again - to sing and dance and hold each other tight, just as they used to do. The love they showed for each other has been an inspiration to me in my marriage.



Grandad (Grampy) and Phoebe

I am going to go now, can't have too many tears on the keyboard, but I would like to say this. My Grandad was this blog's biggest fan. He was my number one reader and the main reason for all the hundreds of pictures I have posted here over the years. In honour of him I am making a promise to myself to keep this blog going, and to try and write more regularly. I hope to make this a true picture of our family's path as we journey together through this life.

So goodnight and God bless Grandad. You are so loved and will be missed greatly. We will hold onto those memories of the good times we had together and cherish them always. You will forever be in our hearts. I love you. xxx